I promise you, this won't be an extravagantly long post....! I've been told about my wandering mind...lol...But the summer is here! And the past seasons of transition, hybernation and budding, have been particularly beautiful. SIgns (Omens), Divine Intervention & Interpretation, in addition to Sobering Self-Realization have created something so masterfully awe-inspiring and breathtaking.
I just wanted to take this moment to remind you to enjoy the little things...
*You may not have a grandiose social circle, but you've got one good confidant(e).
*You may not have the funds to travel abroad, and eat exquistely; however, all you need is a whiff of fresh air to remind you of your presence and The Almighty's Essence.
(*Breathe and Inhale. Now Release.)
I really want you to try something new!
If you haven't seen me [just look at my Instagram], you should know I am a big woman; very curvy, round, vuloptuous, fat, lumpy, whatever...(but cute, nonetheless), and society dictates that because of my size I shouldn't, yet, I plan on trying cliff diving and Scuba Diving...I just want to be fulfilled now! Together, both you and I have relinquished our difficult and downing pasts. So, lets be renewed by the love that the sun nourishes our souls with, and just be FREE!
Enjoy the laugh and good times, which come with good people and good vibes! I'll be taking you on the journey, of course! (Just follow Me....)
I Love You,
XoX -Sabrina. You're Amazing, by the way. :-*
It begins 3.29. Kanye West wrote something bizarrely striking to me, in a recent tweet (on his twitter account). He said, "I have millions of ideas and I represent a new generation just trying to express themselves in a broken world. [...]"
(And) all of this --the aforementioned-- is what every artist in their personal art-form predicates his or her work with. That, maybe in the dysfunction of a breeding generation, there can be some sort of identity to merge and lead the expressions from the peers of their time; from the census of oppression and miscommunication, the applicable reasoning through abstract interpretation.
This is important to me, an engineer of words/mechanic of literary construction, because oft times an artist is consumed in the art more than reality; yet, for those who are unaware, this is FREEdom. What is freedom? The ability to express one's self without restriction due to social conformity, religious enigma and/or self doubt. As a writer and poet, I am to illuminate minds on the pasture of their journey; this is the order of my moral & spiritual obligation.
I witness a whole lot of people confess to be free, but say it whilst bound. I see the desire of generations awaiting to be unleashed...yet, denied. I am a representation of a broken nation, whose refusal to abolish its own hatred is continuously destructive.
But in this broken world, there are so many like me, who just want to be free. Who do not know where to start in developing their true sense of self, who anger easily at thought of attempted liberation. And for those of us who have cowered, and want to DO IT no more... Let's continue this journey. I want you to be apart of what I have been saying and meditating on since you met me...: "Be Free With Me!" I am hitting the road. (I have 8 initial cities that I am trekking, but if I am not nearing you...just bring me to you and your group/community.) There is no way to really advertise this, so... If you want to be free, just go with me. You know what has you bound, you know what you desire to life an unrestricted life, so just: FREE.YOUR.SELF.
I think there are few things to bring into resolve for myself this year. Which is good. It means I have done my work, and shall act accordingly, as it relates to the newness of opportunity. However, hibernation is a just due gestation, and is the nurturing requisite that precedes birth; the springing forth of new life. (This is in part the reason why I never do or say anything in January; it is a time to be inundated with spiritual, mental and emotional resources for prospective journeys.) And what I wish and hope for you, in this forthcoming year, is the ability to let free the person you've been striving to become with me on this journey. And, if you are new to the #BeFreeWithMe trek...well, then! Hola! :) <-- Big Hugs to you! And welcome to my family.
I am not your average professional; I have a creative career.... Meaning I get to do what I love to do as my profession and in my personal life. In other words, I am freeing myself up to be me 360 degrees. And I hope that in 2015, you have a ready mindset to undress your self from the bondage you wear!
And if you thought I was intense in 2014...I promise you, we are JUST. GETTING. STARTED!
I LOVE YOU. :-*
[dahy-kot-uh-me] Conflict of Thought & Action; Division into two mutually exclusive, opposed, or contradictory groups; A DICHOTOMY BETWEEN THOUGHT AND ACTION. (Noun)
Being that this is a professional website, and I attempt to USUALLY create motivational articles about boosting your self worth, value and esteem to live the life that you were created to do; devoid of any internal idiosyncrasies. However, I found myself against myself this past week, and wondered about the nature of my own self. What I said I was willing to die for, I had gone silent on, and what I said I was never do, I behooved my lesser self; possibly becoming a greater evil. And you have experienced this conflict as well, known as a dichotomy. (Definition above.)
Last week, I was out with a Caucasian/Mexican associate and we were eating, and I was THEE ONLY BLACK WOMAN/BLACK ANYTHING in the vicinity of the restaurant; the next thing I knew (and truly unbeknownst to me), there was an integrated social protest in response to blasphemous murder of Eric Garner (google him & WATCH HIS DEATH) and, the baby Tamir Rice; 12 years-old (google him & WATCH HIS WITHOUT WARNING DEATH). I kid you not, everyone who was in the restaurant turned to me to see what I would, how I would respond; would it be with vile and cruel beastly anger or would I digress to the restroom?
I excused myself, and went outside, and while I did not chant, or lay down on the cold concrete or exclaim that "I Can't Breathe," as Eric Garner did. I felt the integrity and FEAR behind the fight for Freedom. And I saw white families with their children, lie on the ground in solidarity for my cultural cause; and I was frozen. Paused and in Fear, because it was very hard to instinctually premeditate what the few racists in the opposing crowd would do; who would make an unjust move, further instigating the injustice of this American judicial system. I was there; me in a personal dilemma; also known as a dichotomy.
The next day, I was in the midst of four hundred white women, invited to my first, and a very ultra exclusive (might I add) High Tea Society. Some of them had pure disgust on their faces, others, thought I was the help until I sat down. Even more were surprised that I knew how to drink tea properly; which many of them did not. LOL, I thought. This is strange...something like, well....(you know the title).
Then I thought about all the current social issues in the American culture; all the facades that we all display in our self-praising false identity. How African American Greek letter organizations will rally IN COMPLETE UNISON to denounce and remove a reality show (#SororitySisters) that they feel is degrading to their crafts; YET, will not allow their same sorors and frats to protest in recent events in the streets wearing their letters. DICHOTOMY. Churches denouncing homosexuality, babies born out-of-wedlock or promoting within to those who provide the most deviant sexual favors, while preaching pure white salvation; Dichotomy. Being apart of a nation who proclaims to unite all people for a greater good; YET, continues to have the highest incarceration rate in the world, who is in more debt than can be made up in 3 lifetimes, is now making school district rezoning illegal [as to not allow for higher education for lower income families, which are more often than not MINORITIES], where Bible-Belt regions such as the south still segregate (and even have made it illegal to feed the poor on the street or handout money to those undoubtely in need) and still will not allow women to be properly educated on their bodies to make sound decisions in the best interest of the woman. I don't know...but to me, sounds like there could be some sort of an internal conflict; the will to do better, believe bigger, and then do nothing, or more drastically do something that creates complete obliteration to the good-willed intention.
Sometimes we ask "God" to show us the errors in our ways in order to be used at an optimal obsequious altitude, and then when we are shown...it is the Good & Evil within ourselves that show us the Good & Evil in the world, and how we are all in a struggle that consists of our minds attempting to make sense of the dense matter in which live, and standards by which we operate, and we will forever feed the timidity of our inner selves the grainy and askewed perspective denial of our higher selves, call it "god" or good-standing moral conscious behavior to make everything in our own little world justifiable & ok. Until, we are the ones in need of our personal cause to be fought for (with unwavering stamina).... But, I presume, safely, that you wouldn't know about these things, cause maybe, unlike me, you see things perfect -- as it should be.
(Think with me, now isn't that a....well....)
Dichotomy. - Sabrina Ashley, December 2014 ©
(by Sabrina Ashley) The deepest darkest place that one can ever go to is in the confines of the abyss which lies in the human mind. Chambers, hardwiring and physiological being, the mind is the active lifestyle or the projection of powered living from the brain. And in my own process and my assistance with others in their journey of being free with me, I have learned and am learning the unspeakably difficult transition of healing and lifestyle change. Today, in honor of a dear friend of mine, and to shun my own shame… I’d like to address depression from the perspective of one who deals with it.
A chemical imbalance or environmental/atmospheric/behavioral condition, depression is a disease (dis-ease) that can literally bring a halt to the motion of life; there is no such thing as joy, hope, positivity or happiness, because the dysfunction in a healthy lifestyle is disabled. This is not going to be an elongated post on the many mood swings, and influxes in chemical balances or the skewed perception of life that comes as a result of depression. Rather, this is a post for those who are in the fight and damning struggle; who scream silently, and progress with paralysis; I understand.
I know the feeling of having this invisible veil shield your soul, which makes you feel as though you seem so small, and so invaluable to the whole of the human community. I know what it is like to have a mental breakdown and have an “episode”. The facade of social importance, recognition and inclusion has glazed my soul more than a time or two…I remember being in a place, but vacant all the same; me in my mind; playing in the drift. But what I also know is how important it is to value your life, and take responsibility. Not just the ownership of your actions, but the ownership of your personal spiritual, emotional, physical and mental health.
Whether your voice being lost is a result of a dismantled childhood and foundational years, or hereditary is the cause for your chemical imbalances. You can always reach out. And even if that means tugging at someone, emailing or texting one that you trust in lieu of vocalizing –because of shame or fear—your need to be found and be whole…do that. Whether seeking professional health, and following through with either medications (a personal choice) or counseling, DO THAT. Or maybe you feel you are not that “deep in,” okay. Find a friend. Have none? Stop a friendly stranger, ask for a hug. Be Real, because being real is what it takes to Be Free. Do Not be deceived, Beautiful Soul with the Beautiful Story, you matter. Your life is depending on you to pull through. And I am here to love you!
Be Free With Me?
-Sabrina <3 1.4.3
It has been 5 days! and it is only now that I am able to settle from the emotional high and hysterics of such a spiritual encounter. I had no expectations of what would take place, and even being there --in the arena-- up until the security guards (strongly) encouraged me to leave :) I still cannot articulate what took place; especially, when purpose was involved...a spiritual traction that appointed the expulsion of my heart's desire with the coordinates of destiny.
You must know, honestly, what led me to being apart of Oprah's dream for herself (and for others) at the first stop for her: Live the Life You Want tour. It all started back in March 2014 when pre-sale tickets went on sale. I scoured websites, looking for prices...I knew it wouldn't be cheap; however, I had no idea how expensive they would be! Yikes!!! (I thank The Divine that Heaven is Free. Lol.) I learned quite a bit about mind-setting, manifest creation (more commonly referred to as: The Law of Attraction) and designing "miracles". So, I set in my heart the want and desire to be apart of this momentous occasion by ANY MEANS NECESSARY...ANY!!! I thought and meditated on this very thing for a very long time...from March until July. In August, an events company was hiring for grounds crew for LLYW, and I thought: Perfect! This is my chance to get to be apart of the experience! A way to "sneak" into the action, I guess. Until I found out that grounds crew were going to be outside at the O-so-fun O-town (an Oprah experience set up in Centennial Park, and it was a blast indeed!). Then, I thought, I guess this will do, even though this is not what I asked for [in my Divine Moments of prayer]. TWO DAYS before I was set to work, and watch thousands of women have the moment of their lives...an industry friend of mine (and an adored radio personality), texted me to tell me she had a +1, and thought I would love to go.... if I wanted!?! Uh...don't ever ask...just tell me where I need to be! And well, I didn't want to hurt her feelings (wink-wink) so I shyly obliged, but on the inside screamed like I won the 2 billion dollar lottery, and in a way.....I had!
On night one of the two day encounter, Oprah -the storyteller- was beautiful. And although I tried....darn it! I couldn't resist crying. For me, it was watching the culmination of an incomplete journey and masterful legacy of the woman I would watch every day after school (grade, middle, high and college) at 4pm, and she became real to me, and real for me! The respect I have for Ms. Winfrey has always been on the level of an executive...and then, as a woman who overcame her traumatic past life. The one thing I will never forget is Oprah saying (and this is true for me because this statement was an EXACT verbatim prayer I had prayed to my god, for myself): "You may think that your life is over, but all of you can be exhausted. All of you can be used: ON PURPOSE!" When she said that, as I have always said to my ever-growing audience, I knew then, it was designed for me to see the possibility of my future self. And this became a holy moment; an outer body experience and celestial encounter; seeing Oprah on that stage was like seeing me at the exchange of tremendous work ethic.
Day 2, brought about something new for me; speakers (and respective industry specialists), Pastor Rob Bell, author of Eat. Pray. Love., Elizabeth Gilbert, Minister & Soul Healer Iyanla Vanzant and the illustrious Deepak Chopra. I have a myriad of notes, of which I could literally write for you the transcript. Yet, the overall, and underlying thought and belief system that I WAS ABLE to extract for MYSELF is that yes, you in this right now, at this right place for this right moment of confirmation; YOU, were given what you dream, and even with the seemingly nothingness you have, use that to create what you see in your mind, and make that the belief of your heart and from there a passion will resurrect so bright, that that will be the illumination upon your feet to light your path. And I felt an EXPLOSIVE OVERWHELMING sense of gratitude; graciousness that without the money or (financial) means to be in that place, provision was created, PROVIDED for me...to connect with those of whom are next level thinkers, higher dimensional achievers & believers! I WAS THERE to GET MY LIFE. AND TO KNOW I AM ON THE RIGHT PATH AND JOURNEY to Live the Life I Want....which is to enable humanity to dare to believe there is purpose and intention behind their existence. Between the networking, a sunny Georgia day and the cusp of liberty; GOD ordained this unspeakable treasure, Oprah, and her experience, is the insight, and now I AM FREE to LIVE THE LIFE I WANT!
(I cannot wait to see where this journey leads me now. Kind of like, expectation.) What is the "Life You Want?"
...So, how are you doing? Hanging in there okay? I've been missing in action on here, but never far departed am I from our communal journey of personal liberation.
Just wanted to give you an update.... I never want to venture far from the messages of love and hope I put out in the world. I would like to think that I live an honest life, and in my forthrightness and transparency I just...well...have to be HONEST! Since my last blog post, "Letting IT Out vs Letting It Go"... I've seen my inner self challenge my subconscious mind to consider truly whether or not I have let things go. Nope. I had not. I had only let it all out. Looking, perhaps, to reconcile myself with the identity that I have always known to be true concerning self before LIFE HAPPENED! And, truthfully...I wanted attention. I wanted someone or others in the world to know that the this that I am, although the present sum result of the experiences encountered, this is not all that I am.
For those of you who have READ MY BOOK (purchase now if you haven't) or heard me speak, you know that I have had certain challenges in my life that have paralyzed me to a complete halt. And I am not too sure that I want that to continue to be my story. I do not want to be known any longer or further associated as the uptight girl with the issues; the one plagued by her past, which is steadily visible in her "I am trying to hide my pain" image. So not me. Attention, we all crave it. Pity, I am not bout that life. So, when I am contracted to assist others on how to be them-authentic-selves, it is not healthy for me to stand before others while in denial of my poor and unhealthy spirit, which in turn affects and effects the mind. So, I've been here taking the necessary actions to be a better servant; to learn how to give selflessly from the right and ordained places, you know? Like...the refined places. I am learning how to love me better, so I can show you how to love yourself better; healthily and more properly. I am here; here and putting it all into practice. (Cause I was taught practice does not make perfect; practice makes permanent.) I Love U! XX
-Be Free With Me?
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(from yesterday's post, here is part two...As always, this is copywritten but, I'm willing to share; just email me!)
5 Ways to that hint if You’ve Let IT Out or Let It Go!
1. If you have made countless empty affirmations, cried/screamed/cussed, and made audible disavowments, yet you continuously dwell in thought over a situation and/or person or particular time IN YOUR PAST…you’ve only LET IT OUT!
2. If you feel as though there are MANY things that are left to be said to someone you’ve either done wrong, or have been wronged by one, and constantly voice your frustrations to your inner circle…perhaps you have moved on, but you’ve only LET IT OUT!
3. If you can think of the person, thing or memory of that pivotal moment from your past, and not be emotionally provoked, or have memory that doesn’t continue to burn your scorned heart…you’ve LET IT GO!
4. If desire PEACE (full harmony of the natural order and balance of life), and can agree to the spiritual contract of self-responsibility and self-accountability, and you assume acknowledgement of awareness or harnessing the power of wisdom to not create repeated steps of lack, “failure”, “mistakes” , desperation, abandonment fillers and subservient nature [to a particular person, thing, memory –and those affiliated with that memory—or ideology/belief system]… YOU HAVE LET IT GO!
5. TO ME this is the #1 sign that you have LET GO, how might I know you may ask? Well beautiful soul, I know this because I reached this place myself recently…
YOU HAVE LET GO of all association to your past and its traumatic ramifications when you cannot say any singular thing about it at all, and quite frankly refuse to even allow the past to be resurrected in anyway. You have come to the internal realization that what was done was done; there is no way of traveling backwards, and you have actualized the human aspect of it all. You realize you will hurt others, others will hurt you, you will love and you will be loved (hopefully), you will gain and you will lose (whether it be taken away or lost). Yet, what remains is YOU! And the wisdom and experience gain will begin to consume you and even though you may not have deserved your share in life or some ill was very much earned…the flicker of inspiration to be bigger than your belittlement, higher than your self-hatred, more powerful than your past…it surges in you. And for some odd reason, you won’t be able to remember your past if you tried, because, perhaps for the first time, your future has your heart fixated on a vision that has struck your curiosity. And your hunger drives your passion to propel you forward.
It is here, after healing from hurt; here, after putting your work in and becoming real with the mess of who you were and are trying to no longer be that the love of life has taken over, and then one day you’re looking back and are astonished to know that you cannot even identify with the person you were, and all things have faded away; and you smile because…YOU’VE LET GO!
I am so proud of us!
We are getting there; one step closer to our ultimate selves. Next week, I will show you minor steps of motivation to create major transformation.
Sabrina Ashley, © 2014 All works are the expressed Intellectual Property of Sabrina Ashley, any unlawful use will be tried to the fullest extent of applicable laws. Works may not be electronically/digitally or physically reproduced or sold.
...You let it out, but did you let it go?
So the other day, I was crying about something…most likely there was just an emotional frustration that comes with a mental transition, and spiritual ascension. Nevertheless, I remember spending useless time crying (while snidely relaying these emotions on hormones) about something that I SWORE & VOWED I would never cry about again.
But then the cry got OOGLY and all I kept thinking in the back of my mind was…you do not cry over something this hard, that you ALLEDGELY let go of! I then realized that for many of us…LETTING IT OUT has not been synonymous with LETTING IT GO! That was probably one of the most eye-opening, aha!-having, “did you catch that?” moment I've had in quite some time.
How do you know if you JUST Let It Out and HAVE NOT properly Let It Go?
(*You know I've got your back and I will share 5 easy hints to help you identify if you just let it out or if you've TRULY let go.)
NOTE: When you let something out…you've released it from the calloused [physiological] energy formation that it was.
Methods of Letting It Out means you've been forced by the confinement of a situation and you've taken or need to take an action of expression that will release the toxicity of the energy.
NOTE: When you let something OR someone go… you are detaching from habitual rituals that created a mental expectation for a response; in addition to disconnecting your emotional and spiritual soul-tie.
Methods of Letting Go/Release can be recreational, AUDIBLE AFFIRMATIONS and the follow thru, kinetic, structured exercises (usually thru a trained psychological professional, religious leader or life coach) or physical exercise.
Sabrina Ashley, © 2014 (Article may be used with written or expressed permission. For more info. Email me!
The Five Hints that Suggest whether or Not you LET IT OUT or LET IT GO, will be live tomorrow, Thursday, July 10, 2014 @ 9a! Tune in and tell a friend to tell an enemy of a friend (wink-wink) to meet me here!
Happy Friday!!! This video is a bit lengthy, but I wanted to provide you with as much info. as possible concerning our journey in Self-Liberation together! :) Here, you probably get to see my personality. I mean well, and I love harder. :) Be Well, and Be Free!